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This is a start to the documentation of a young girl losing her mind, and trying to find it whenever that may be. So when it does happen, the process and journey will all be documented every step of the way. Here are stories, steps, confusions and thoughts. cheers to the ugly things in life.

Monday, August 20, 2012

you can find me in my shadows


find me loving


Gemini loving


Geminis love intelligent conversation, so the way to the Geminian heart is through the head. The Geminian is best involved with a steadier, stronger personality who will tolerate and enjoy their butterfly socializing, yet still be there for them when the cards have all blown down. They are willing to experiment with all manner of relationship styles; and as long as their partner is articulate, tolerant, exciting, adventurous and willing to discuss their exploits in detail, they will be ecstatic.

Because Gemini is not above straying, they are rather divorce prone. However, typically they think the joys of an occasional adventure more than make up for the risks involved. Geminis are exciting companions who crave excitement and variety. They assume they will be able to easily smooth over troubled waters with their silver tongue--they are tolerant of the peccadilloes of their partners, so long as they are not stolid or boring

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Love people. Cook them tasty food. I just want someone to love and cook them tasty food that is all.

Friday, August 17, 2012

Keeper

the anticipation is killing her, shes waiting, its calling her name, it's aggravating. It's clearly right infront of her yet she doesnt know how to respond. How to grasp it and take it in. How do you keep it once you snag it? Isn't the snagging part the hardest and the rest is supposed to just fall into place?
She thinks the easiest so she can set her mind into rest. That is happening and when it doesnt, she waits and anticipates for it to turn a 360, and be shoved into her face. Sometimes you have to realize that the journey isnt always the hardest part, it's the aftermath of the experience and struggle to make you realize that it continues on and you must know where to take the rest of itself, where it will take you, and most importantly how to handle it and how to work it to the fullest.
Search it, find it, grasp it, snag it, grow it, keep it.
Keeper.

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

"you make me very very happy" he says.
"yea, yea, put it in writing" she says

home



these streets will see my best and worst days.
 lets see what this gypsy house has in store for me, welcome home :)


Sunday, August 5, 2012


hows your world?

now that I have finally came to realize that I am truly happy, more so than I have ever really known that I could be, I will encourage others to find their happiness.
I've always wanted to do so, but ive also realized that you really cant help someone
be happy unless you find happiness with yourself.
I am at the point where I feel content. Content to the point where I want to "stay" where I am.
Not only stay, but continue in the direction forward.
Forever forward, never backwards.
I will ask as many people as I cross paths with each and everyday, this one simple question
"Hows your world?"

smiles on smiles

have you ever been so happy that it hurt?
knowing that your almost to your peak of happiness and your just slowly waiting for it to arrive?
You see it coming so its anxiously right around the corner...
everythings planned, but nothing is set.
You sit and wonder to the almost positive "what if"
Knowing that that "what if" could of been a "should of, could of, would of"
All that you need to know is that it "MAY be".. take in that MAY be, and LET it be.
That way, when it doesn't come, you can take it as a lets plan better for tomorrow.
This may not make since to you, but you will experience it.
And when that time comes, you can be prepared, and if your not, let it be.
Theres always a MAY be, waiting around the corner for each individual.

roll with me

look around your world pretty baby is it everything you hoped it be?
The wrong guy, the wrong situation
Look into your heart pretty baby, is it aching with some nameless need
Is there something wrong and you cant put your finger on it?
Right then, roll to me
And i dont think i have ever seen a soul in so despair
so if you want to talk the night through guess who will be there
So dont try and deny it pretty baby,
youve been down so long you can hardly see
when the engines stalled and it wont stop raining
its the right time to roll with me

Thursday, August 2, 2012

up and down

the streets go.
she claims shes trying to find her way but yet its right infront of her. What else are you waiting for? Asking for? Wanting?
Shes never satisfied yet she doesnt have a care in the world.
Everything seems like it's in their own place, their own place in that exact moment of time. So wheres her place? She often seeks curiosity out of others pleasure. What makes them so happy? Would that make me happy? Shes clueless yet spontaneous and all she wants is that place and moment in time, Where she looks up and smiles and realizes it's came to her, it's right there infront of her face.
Go find it, search it, want it, look for it, feel it, just god damn be it lady.